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.It was intense, which is why I didn't make much sense on the phone that night.Sorry for that, too, you shouldn't have had to tell me the whole story with descriptions three times.Was neat to hear about it from Keith's point of view, though.Tell him I say hi, yeah? He's fun to talk to on the phone.Not that I'll be spending money to call him, but soon enough we'll live in the same city, and he's promised to act out the best bits of Paul Hits The Jerk On The Jaw And Makes Him Bleed.I think it'll be my most favorite play ever.I'm a bloodthirsty bastard, but you knew that.Speaking of bloodthirsty, I'm having The Sale of My Stuff on May 10.Everything must go! Well, aside from the stuff already packed and the stuff in my room.And some other stuff.Okay, so I'll shove everything into the living room and let people buy what they want.Stace is not back with the boyfriend, I guess she'd finally just had enough of his attitude.She's going to help me price stuff, the silly thing.Oh, and she says I should just burn my clothes and get all new.I'm not sure why.My clothes don't all suck, do they?Do they?Gotta sell the car.Hard to know when, though, because I'll actually need it for a while.Oh, and the landlord took my notice, but thought that I'd be out mid-month, so he rented it.I have to find somewhere to live for the last two weeks of May.I suspect I'll wind up crashing at Jerry and Tim's.Like that's a shock.And I took your advice and went shopping online for a waterproof vibe for them, it should be here soon.Got you some presents, too.And something for Keith.And something for me.Okay, so I spent too much.Oops?Finals this week, and the department's in an uproar.The student's know I'm not coming back next year, and therefore aren't trying to suck up in hopes for pleasant classes next year.This sucks.Worse, some meddling bimbo assumed that I'd been let go, not merely declined to negotiate a new contract, and she got it in her head that it was because I'm gay.Thank fuck I got that straightened out before she said anything to anyone—the college doesn't need or deserve that kind of press.I never made an issue about being gay, never hid it—and it never had any effect.It would kill me to see people upset over something that never happened.Dianna (remember her? Closet lesbian?) and I had lunch and I told her about you and about moving.She was happy and pleased, which was nice.Also? Keys has a steady.Nice for him, I guess.Nice for the guy, too.Office hours soon, and I love you and I promise not to call so often just to hear your voice.You can call me, though.Love you, want you, miss you.Love,GrayWritten on graph paper, blue inkDated May 2Gray,1.Stop spending money on dildos or else you might start feeling depressed because my dick isn't purple.Or cone shaped.And doesn't vibrate.2.Stop spending money on phone calls.I love you.I want you.You love me and you're a horny pervert.We know this.3.Do spend some money on your wardrobe, and take Stace shopping with you.Tell her I love her.Your clothes don't all suck.But they do mostly say 'anal-retentive geeky college professor', which can be somewhat limiting.I say go with Stace's instinct!You don't need a car in San Francisco.Plus, I will still have mine, and the apartment only has one parking space, so sell the car.Oh, but quick! Save the coffee grinder, mine burned out yesterday.Keith keeps telling me that I better watch my back because he might steal you away from me.He said he's more charismatic.I said maybe, but I'm sure I'm better in bed.He said I should let him do you and then you can be the judge.I said no.Emphatically.But it was funny all the same.Maybe you had to be there.Or be stoned.I might have a summer theater gig lined up with an SF theater in the park group.It could be fun, won't pay much, but then I'm not in it for the money, so that's okay.They do classical stuff, Shakespeare, Shaw, Ibsen, Chekhov, that kind of thing.They'll do three plays over the summer, and we're talking about me directing two of them.They're kicking you out of your place mid-May? What idiots! Well, living with Tim and Jerry will be a great hardship for you I know, but you can do it, baby, I have faith.I move into the new place on June 1, I'm in the process of cleaning out my closets and drawers and crap right now.Send your boxes to my place before you move in with the boys, I'll get them to the new place.Glad you dealt with that nosy bimbo at school.What a mess that could have been.I've said this 20 times, I know, but if you need any financial help with this move, will you please tell me? I can help.I'd like to, even.K?I stroked off thinking about you last night.Hell, I stroke of thinking about you every night.And most mornings.And occasionally in the shower, too.I can't even think about fucking anyone else anymore.At least you have Tim and Jerry to get you off, eh? I'm impatient, even if it is only a month away.One month, Gray, and we'll be starting something totally new together.It can't get here fast enough.Overtime is going to kick my ass this month, though, so it should pass quickly.All my love, and kisses for the boys and Stace.PaulLetter taped to top of one of six boxes, arriving at Paul's on May 19thBaby,So, by the time these get to you I'll be out of the loft and at Jerry and Tim's.You have the phone number, right?Everything is ready to sell.The bed's been taken apart, the mattress chucked, the sheets handed off to be used as drop cloths.I have two blankets and my pillow, and I'm sleeping on the couch.Which I hope will be sold.Okay, so these are the first six boxes—you did get six, I hope to God.I'll be sending probably four more in the next few days, and I'm bringing two suitcases with me.I'm sending the dishes in this box, please open it up and make sure they're not broken? And if they are, don't tell me.Ever.I miss you.Don't wanna sleep with Keith.Don't wanna sleep with Jerry and Tim.Well, I don't want to have sex with them.I might want to cuddle.Just wanna be with you.Soon.June 3rd [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]